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26 Ramadhan 1429h (6.38pm)

I'm alone in my room right now. Omar flew to Penang since tuesday, Wan Mat Saman drove to Terengganu this morning and after Asar just now Nasir speed his new Honda NSR to Kluang. And most of the Tun Dr Ismail residents have left their room for home. I still have another 18 hours of waiting before my bus left Batu Pahat tomorrow. This evening I plan to break fast at Masjid Jamek UTHM. At least there I still can feels the Ramadahan environment...

Aku berjaya..

Kelapangan pada petang tadi membolehkan aku untuk pergi ke Stesen Bas Batu Pahat untuk menyelesaikan masalah tiket pulang sempena raya. Sebenarnya aku telah mempunyai tiket untuk ke Seremban pada 25 sept (Khamis) yang merupakan tiket "reject" kepunyaan seorang teman. Dia menukar fikiran untuk balik ke Seremban dengan motorsikal. Kebetulan ketika itu aku malas untuk ke BP untuk mencari tiket. Tetapi aku merasakan bahawa TERLALU AWAL untuk aku pulang pada tarikh tersebut. Aku ingin menangguhkan kepulangan pada hari Sabtu, 27 Sept 2008.

AWAL???? Kalau orang lain hari Isnin lagi dah nak balik, kenapa aku nak lambat. Mesti ada antara pembaca yang tertanya-tanya. Sesungguhnya bukan aku tak nak pulang awal ke pangkuan keluarga tercinta tetapi aku tidak suka LARI DARI TANGGUNGJAWAB. Ya, ada lagi tugasan dan beberapa perkara penting yang perlu aku selesaikan sebelum pulang bercuti. Aku tidak mahu kepulangan nanti menjadi penyebab timbulnya isu berbangkit di masa akan datang. Biar TANGGUGJAWAB ini selesai sebelum aku tenang menyambut kedatangan Syawal 1429 h.

Nota : Tiket ke Seremban banyak lagi. Nasib baik tiket hari Khamis tu boleh tukar. Tambah RM 2.20 je sebagai caj tukar+servis.

Kepada rakan-rakan yang sudah mula pulang bercuti, aku doakan kalian selamat. Kalau memandu, berhati-hati di jalanraya. Jangan bawa laju-laju..

When you're reading this post, I am in the middle of preparing my laboratory report. It is my habit to do my work with my windows open but tonight I can't do so. It is raining outside with strong wind blown. So cold.....

Since last Friday (19 sept) my routine become ordinary than usual. On the friday night I was called to become the 'Bilal Tarawih' at Tun Fatimah Residential College. The next day, I attend Baktisiswa Sekolah Menengah Agama Parit Raja programme for the whole day. The same night, once again my expertise as 'Bilal Tarawih' is needed this time at Masjid Jamek UTHM (maybe his is the best experience ever).

Just after the tarawih prayer, I accompanied Ustaz Aziz to Rumah Anak-Anak Yatim Kluang. He was called to conduct motivation session @ slot muhasabah there. The session is a success-what is the indicator?? I can say all of them including the fasilitator(Master students from FPT) are crying.

About 1 am I arrived at the main campus. My programme didn't finish yet. A day before I've planned with a few member to perform qiamullail at the mosque. The Ramadahan month entered the last phase. Remember the theme I set for this Ramadhan? "Bulan Untuk Berubah". As I arrived most of them were already slept. Only Bunyamin and Shafiq are working at the kitchen preparing food for sahur. I change my cloth, take wudhu, open up my sleeping bag and after reciting a few doa's........ZzZzZzZ

Ramadhan Awalnya RAHMAT, pertengahannya KEAMPUNAN dan akhirnya KELEPASAN DARI API NERAKA.

Experience

Last Wednesday (10 September 08) I was shortlisted as one of the candidate to be interviewed for Skim Latihan Tenaga Pengajar Politeknik (SLTP), KPTM. Alhamdulillah, this is my second attempt applying the scholarship. Last time I was not selected.

Therefore I made some preparation the day before. This is not a playing matter. I assumed that the interview questions will be more on teaching field because it is KPTM scholarship. So that night I try to memorize all the important names that related to the teaching industry. Just ask me who is the person-Education Minister, Minister of Higher Education, Director of Jawatankuasa Pengurusan Politeknik....all are ready. Then I made some preparation on notes as the teaching aid. By the way all the candidates have to perform "micro teaching" session during the interview.

Jeng...jeng...jeng... the day of judgement. I arrived a little bit late from the actual time. To me I didn't fulfill the criteria to be a lecturer at that time. As I arrived at the 'quarantine room', other candidates are all ready. I went to the registration counter to tick my attendence. Another suprise-my name is put at the top of the list. Means that I am the first candidate for that morning session.

"MOHD FIRDAUS BIN ISMAIL, Bilik Panel B", Chris (the KPTM officer) say it loud. Actually at that moment I was tying my necktie. What happened to me at that day?? I replied the call, took my documents and certificate files and put my jacket on. Bismillah, I walk confidently to the room.

"Assalamualaikum WBT, may I come in". "Yes you may. Take a seat, rilex yourself", the panel told me. There is only one panel in the room. After she is ready with some writing on the paper, she startes to asked.

First question : Tell me about yourself.

Me : (Simple question). My name is bla..bla..bla.. I was born in bla..bla..bla..........

Second question : Can you explain about integrity.

Me : (Integrity?? I've heard about this word before) Ok, integrity is the process of integrating all races in Malaysia to be one nation:Malaysian nation.

Interviewer : Can you differentiate between integration and integrity. It bring different mean.

Me : (Oh no, I answered it wrong. After some moment of thinking..). Oh, sorry. I misunderstood your question. Actually integrity is about our personel behaviour when working or given a responsibility. Don't take bribe, fulfill the working time....

Interviewer : That is the right answer.

Me : (fuhh...)

The Q&A session going for about 45 minutes including the 'micro teaching' session. I can concluded that I perform well in the interview. All the question are answered confidently. As I arrived at the 'quarantine room', other candidates start to asked about the interview.

So now I am waiting for the result whether I got the scolarship or not. If I got the scholarship means that I've already tuning my career into teaching field. I don't mind to be in any working field. As for myself I have to prepared so that I am fitted in any condition and situation. May this blessed month of Ramadhan bring a lot of barakah to those who believed.

Syukur...

Alhamdulillah. Ramadhan dah masuk hari ke-4. Cepatnya masa berlalu. Mana tak cepat, dalam 24 jam sehari aku menggunakan 2/3 daripadanya untuk kelas, tugasan, ulangkaji dan pada sebelah malamnya untuk tarawih dan tadarus. Tapi itulah hakikatnya kedatangan bulan Ramadhan-bulan ujian dan medan mengji kesabaran. Sabar ke aku dalam menghadapi semua ni??
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Cumanya aku berasa tidak senang dengan kelakuan sebahagian daripada mahasiswa/wi terutamanya yang menghuni di Kolej Kediaman Tun Dr Ismail (baca KKTDI). Bagi mereka tiada beza antara bulan Ramadhan dengan bulan-bulan yang lain. Yang berubah waktu makan-sahur sebelum pukul 5.55 pagi dan makan malam bermula 7.15 petang. Selain itu, hampeh. Tiada apa yang berubah. Takda perubahan, kami berubah la!! Kami datang solat di surau. Berjemaah pula tu. Solat tarawih pun kami buat. Lepas tarawih tadarus pula. Bagus, bagus..

Tapi kenapa masa berbuka masih berdua-duaan dengan siswi? Duduk bersebelahan pula tu. Siang banyak tidur. Penat jadi alasan. Lepas berbuka rokok menjadi antara hidangan utama yang menyelerakan. Siswi pula pakaian MasyaALLAH. Comel mengalahkan adik-adik berumur 6 tahun ke bawah dengan baju tak padan dengan saiz badan.

"Lan, maghrib hari ni pukul berapa?". "7.15 bang"pantas jawapan yang diberikan. Subuh esok? Aaa..5.50 kot. Zohor? Tak pasti la,bang.

Fenomena macam ni mesti biasa berlaku. Kenapa?TAK PERCAYA? Cuba la buat ujikaji kat rakan-rakan di sebelah. Waktu maghrib kan waktu berbuka puasa. Kalau hari biasa waktu-waktu macam ni masih berada di padang, di Parit Raja. Azan maghrib adalah azan yang paling ditunggu-tunggu. Eh, eh.. Takkan berbuka je. Azan tu maknanya waktu solat dah masuk bukan waktu berbuka sahaja. Kenapa lepas berbuka tak pergi solat berjemaah di surau. Bukan jasad rohani je perlu makanan roh pun nak makan juga. Dah lama roh tu puasa.

Sudah la. Yang berkata ni pun bukan sempurna sangat. Dalam keadaan tidak sempurna tetapi ada kesedaran untuk berubah daripada tak sedar diri tu tak sempurna dan tidak mahu berubah. Moto aku pada Ramadahan kali ini "Bulan Untuk Berubah".

Selamat Berpuasa!!